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Do you have those days where things just don’t seem to be going your way?
When you just feel downtrodden and frustrated?

Having one of those kind of days.
Feeling sub-par and frustrated that I can’t seem to deliver anything that satisfies.
Feeling the gap between the expectations and the reality.
Worst of all, just feeling frustrated with feeling frustrated.

Yet I really thank God for someone who put a smile on my face with this:
CLARA JOY YOU ARE SO FREAKING PRETTY AND LOVELY! OMG!

Made me laugh my ass off in the office and put that smile back on my face.
Yes, I’m still feeling that unrelentless headache. And I’m still feeling a tad irritated with the impatience and insensitivity extended. But knowing how well loved I am makes a world of a difference.

Deuteronomy 7:7-8 (NLT)
“The LORD did not choose you and lavish his love on you because you were larger or greater than other nations, for you were the smallest of all nations! It was simply because the LORD loves you.”

God loves you simply because He has chosen to do so.
He loves you when no one else loves you.
He loves you when you don’t feel lovely.
His Love is unconditional.

Even when I feel less than my best, He loves me with HIS best.
That’s all I could ever ask for.

It’s not about how smart I am, or how in the person’s words ‘freaking pretty and lovely’ I am, or how much potential I have, or how quick, how funny, how creative I am. I thank God that God thinks not like the world, that pins my worth on what I can give, but that He pins my worth on His love for me.

Thank you for your reminder, you know who you are. 🙂

#WhatI’veBeenUpToLately

#Random Thought 1: So thankful that I’ve got the afternoon today and day off tomorrow just to rest and have some fun time with the girls and hillsong concert. Absolutely jealous that my mum’s jetsetting to New Zealand in a few days! Yet anticipating an absolutely needful holiday for my soul with my travelling laughter in a few months’ time! Indeed we’re living up to our name! 😀 Love what they say, that we rest and have a holiday not to rest ourselves from the journey we’ve walked, but to prepare ourselves for the longer journey ahead.

#Random Thought 2: Favourite current songs are from Darlene’s new album, ‘Under Grace’, ‘I will wait’ & ‘Beautiful’, together with Israel Houghton’s ‘Jesus Be the Center’. Favourite movies, none so far, movies haven’t really spoken to me lately.

#Random Thought 3: Lovin’ life the way it is now even though it’s been really tiring, getting my soul nourished and happy in the Lord. Sometimes it’s painful when God starts calling your heart back to Him. Because it means pulling off every little ‘Israel’ that we have, every idol, and putting Him back into the central of everything. And it’s not about putting Him center so that I can get blessings, or have my problems and challenges resolved. It’s just putting Him back into the center, because He first loved me. I don’t really care anymore about anything else. Falling in love with my church, my pastor and the central messages every week about Jesus.

#Random Thought 4: Sometimes I find my deep emotions such weakness. As Pastor Dan aptly put it, I feel deeply about a lot of things and people in my life. I can see it as a weakness, but it’s not, really. Because it’s in feeling so deeply, that I find a connection and a passion to be living the life that I’m living and will live. And it’s in feeling so deeply, that I find the heart of God so tender and loving towards me.

#Random Thought 5: Looking forward to a new place and a new room, one to design and decorate on my own, and make my cosy corners. Have a movie area, reading area, sleeping area, dressing up area. Platform bed, new coloured walls, etc etc. Wowwee! (Still not looking forward to location – but new supper kakis!)

So.. Other than writing about recent revelations, or heart truths, I also wanted this to be a place of reminder of the little daily things that I do and feel, of simple things in life that I’m enjoying right now. So here’s to random thoughts and more updates! 🙂

Drink a ‘cuppa, breathe deeply & live strong.

A Little Update…

So here’s a little update as to what’s been happening so far…

1. Came home tonight and found boxes stacked around the living room. Sometimes it’s still a faraway notion that we’ve already sold our house and will be moving out. But seeing those boxes really made it feel more like a reality.

Feeling a ‘lil sad that after so many years here, we will finally be moving away. I guess this place holds quite a lot of memories for me and I really really like the fact that this place is really quiet and windy, and that at nights, I can sometimes go downstairs to just feel the breeze, and do my quiet time.

It’s going to be a challenge adjusting to the drastic change in location: parents just  found a place at Choa Chu Kang(!!!), and for the fact that it’s going to be really really far away from my new workplace… (which brings me to the next point…) but I suppose my friends are right. They’ll still be seeing me since my new workplace and the boy’s place are both in the area…

2. Got a new job as a copywriter for children’s stories… 🙂 It’s actually a dream come true, and really God-sent. Given that I wanted to do a complete switch in industry and job role (and finally finding a specialty and a career to pursue) by pursuing further postgraduate studies overseas, this option and new job would actually pretty much give me the end result that I want, plus not land me in a huge debt and having the constant finance coming in.

But besides all these, I have to say that I’m really thankful that God really gave me options and pretty much opened every door there was. I had unconditional offers from both Curtin University and Queensland University of Technology, which to me was just, just felt really thankful about it.

While I would really have loved to go over, and I know that the desire is still there, I know that now is probably not the right time, given that the debt would probably have amounted to over S$50,000 or more. In a way, I know that in a few years’ time, after the career has been established a little more, and the desire’s still there, God would make a way. Whatever it is, He knows the dreams and the desires of my heart. It’s a waiting journey, but I’ll just learn to enjoy the journey on the way there.

Getting this job was also a testimony in itself that… I’ll probably just put in another post.

3. On a hiatus from work for the next two weeks (yippeeeeee~)! Actually I think I really need this break and that it’s coming in at the right time. Having this little break from work, will probably give me the time that I need to fully enjoy and to recharge for the new season ahead. Probably will be able to read more, write more and listen more.

Have little updates here and there, but nah, I just want to remember these three from now… Want to post more pictures but unfortunately the lappie’s with me, but not the charger so I can’t use my lappie. -_-” Oh wells. Night world!

God wouldn’t be God;

Everyone has issues.

Just because I have issues about what you don’t, doesn’t mean that you don’t have issues.

Issues – they make us who we are – Human.

And human, that’s how God can love us perfectly. Because if we were so perfect,

Love wouldn’t be Love;
and Grace wouldn’t be Grace.

would it?

And so…

I learnt a new word today…

Atelphobia; the fear of not being good enough.
“And Fear does not take into account the PERFECT LOVE of God.”

1 John 4:18 (NKJV)
¹⁸ There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love.

Since the Word says that the perfect Love casts out fear, therefore I shall not fear, and since Antelphobia is a fear, I fear not any longer, because I have been made perfect in Love, made perfect in Christ.

And I also came across this…

Might be a tad bitchy, but a good motto.

Am back in Singapore (boo!), photo post up later.
(That is IF I have the time. Reading takes up most of my time these days… but who’s complaining! 🙂 )